Being no stranger to pain, I've learned to equate pain into purpose. Over the years I've had several triumphs, yet I can't forget the tears that have been shed in order for the person that you see to emerge. Due to my faith, prayer, and wisdom, I've adapted the phrase "there's a blessing in the lesson". Another thing I'm forced to recall is the lyrics to Kurt Carr's song, "God Blocked It".
Through the disappointments and falls, God was shaping me and breaking me in order to emerge even stronger and better than before. What assisted in this process is the fact that I sought God, trusted God, and acted upon His word. As it is said in Proverbs 3:5, "due not lean unto our own understanding", and when I leaned upon revelation knowledge that only came from God, I found myself in perfect peace. Having peace in the midst of any trial can truly shake a situation, enemy, and pitfall. By not giving in, you maintain power. By speaking life, you gain victory. By giving reverence, you receive grace. By giving praise, you receive blessings.
I've also had my share of disappointments in heartaches but I can look back on each experience and see how God was in it. At the time I felt rejected, unwanted, used, and unworthy, which shaped a discerning spirit of whom I love. I love everyone but I realize that I can't be 'In Love' with everyone; be it friend, relationship, or family. Instead of pointing outward, I chose to seek God and look inward. My lesson was to love myself as God loves me and to see myself as God sees me. With a God-like love for myself, I'm unshaken by the opinions of others and I'm able to trust in my self-love rather than searching that validation from man. With discernment and self-love you find it easier to let go when the situation doesn't seem right or add up.
God gave me strength and he gave me wisdom...and now he has allowed a brief moment of hindsight so that I can remember how trusting in him will lead me into a life of even greater blessing. What I consider to be failures, God used as roadblocks to keep me from a road under construction/destructive path. In the times of success, I received favor and ordered steps. I've learned how to hear God's voice say, "My child, this is not for you"....and I listen.
I've truly been kept and I now see that it's better that it hurt for if I had nothing but pleasure I would be aimless, in despair, and without wisdom.
I never thought I could be thankful for the pain but I am...I thank God for who he is and I'm thankful for each situation because it is the makings of me...
An eagle...
A beacon of success...
Wisdom...
And so I am...
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